Some people say that life is like a roller coaster. Mine is, or rather, what happens inside of me is like a roller coaster. One week content and satisfied and the next, not. As I journey through my life, trying to bring up confident children, trying to create a new career for myself as a coach or just manage to get through the day, I slip and slide between the two.
This week as been a “not” week so here I am On the Brink.
Standing on the edge of a very tall cliff.
Strapped to a glider.
Not knowing what I am doing, no one has taught me how.
Yet I am supposed to jump, leap, leave the safety of earth beneath my feet.
And my job is to NOT smash to the ground and crumble.
Stay in the air and get to my destination.
Navigate. Set a course. Live up to expectations.
I am scared to jump yet I have vertigo and standing on this edge is physically painful.
Nausea. Dizziness. Spinning.
It is unbearable to stay here and I must move.
The destination is too far away, I can barely see it.
What can I see? Right in front of me.
Focus on my feet.
Put my fancy shoes on.
Take the first step.
That is enough for today.
Tomorrow will bring another cliff.
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